Starting a website, business or blog is never easy, but it is most certainly worth it. There is something unbelievably satisfying and addictive about following a dream, especially when there is a chance that you might achieve a dream that you once thought was impossible and out of reach. Starting this blog was a huge leap forward for me in many ways. This blog is not only my outlet, a way to relax and a way to express myself, it is also a physical display of my strength, determination and dedication towards achieving my goals.
When I was thirteen I filmed my first youtube video. The video was a makeup tutorial that was filmed on a terrible phone, and the quality of the video was shocking. I didn’t know that you could edit the video, and I didn’t know half of the things about makeup, filming, lighting and editing as I do now. However, that video did something wonderful, it taught me a lesson about myself. That video taught me that I need to follow my passion, and that my big dreams are nothing to be ashamed of. However, I have been very sick for a few years, and I have been unable to get out of bed some days, never mind follow my dreams.
For years, the idea of having a blog and a Youtube channel was in the back of my mind, and my passion for makeup only grew stronger and stronger, until I finally decided that it was time to leave my past behind, get up and follow those big dreams that I had lost hope in. I think that sometimes I am afraid to take chances because I am too afraid of what people think, I am afraid of being judged or ridiculed, but I don’t think that I am going to care about what I did on my death bed, I am going to care about what I didn’t do.
That is how this blog was born, this blog was born out of me having hope for the future, hope of happiness, peace and love. A lot has happened to me this year that has diminished any shred of hope or happiness that I once had, but that’s the funny thing, rather than be bitter, hurt and sad, I decided that it was time to funnel that energy into getting away from what hurt me.
I decided to write this post because I wanted you to learn from my mistakes, and I wanted you to know me better. If I had one wish it would be that I believed in myself and my abilities sooner. I wish that I didn’t let the bullies get to me and diminish my hope, I wish that I had the strength to ignore the negativity, and I wish that I had the same knowledge a few years ago as I do now.
Anyway, this blog is a part of me and I am so proud of how far it has come in the short space of time that it has been live, and I am grateful to all of my subscribers and viewers as you are helping me achieve my dreams.
Thank you so much! I wish you all the best, and I hope that you all achieve all of your dreams as well!